time to let go

Ok, it seems like everyone who posts on here really has it all together... I know you'd all be the first to tell me that you don't, but still, I feel inadequate in my posting skills. I'm gonna give it a shot anyway... Here goes.

Lately, my biggest challenges in my walk with God have been in some way shape or form associated with letting go of my past. I've had to deal with deep emotional wounds that crusted over and became infected long ago, and I've also had to deal with more recent wounds that are still flowing crimson.

I've been holding a lot of resentment toward certain people in my family, but God has shown me that when I felt scared and alone as a child... When I couldn't yet recognize him, he was there. He was protecting me. He was fathering me. The people who hurt me weren't trying to hurt me. They were trying their best to love me. God used them as vessels of his love, but vessels are not perfect. I've let go and forgiven them for their mistatkes, and God has blessed those relationships beyond my wildest imagination.

Today, God really showed me one area that I just have to LET GO. It kinda has to do with trying to save someone who once hurt me. I was reading the watercooler this morning, and Meghan said something that really hit home with me. She said,"It's God's job to deal with the cup-bearers of your past." And she's right. There's nothing I can do to MAKE someone accept Jesus. What I can do in my time of waiting is be faithful to my God who loves me and stop looking to my past for answers. I've already learned first hand how much letting go of something can bless you. I trust that if God can give that much restoration in my family, he can restore this area of my life as well.

God is so faithful, and so good.